*(by the way, mom did just fine thru her surgery)*

i have found inspiration to draw again, to be me again. some of it comes w/ me moving on past drama boy. some comes from the guy in indianna im talkin to who seems like a pleasant dream. seriously, guys just cant be as nice as he is right? idk im happy with talkin to him and im content to enjoy it while it lasts. maybe its real and it will last? idk but im not gonna try to think too far ahead this time and just enjoy. and the third reason i feel sooo inspired is b/c i've found the soundtrack to SPIRIT DANCE, the video i wanted to show my best friends jen ,nikki, and alyssa in ny, but we couldnt find the video. i think its still at the one guys house.

this music moves me in every way possible. My mind,soul and body want to dance the night away in the way my ancestors would. i miss my grandpa Hawk terribly. maybe i'll call him tomarrow....